Stories of the Lost and Found

Outside the sun is play hide and seek with the muddy, ocean gray colored clouds- embraced with the kind of temperature that causes moments in time to slow. I've been sleeping a lot more lately. My bones kind of ache, ya know? As if I am a skeleton made of bricks and stone. Time change is coming but honestly that's not even why I'm typing right now.  The shower steams around my body combining with the scent of rose shampoo and blackberry sugar body wash- trying to calm my mind like every other minute of the day.  Impenetrable. It's an adjective, yet a feeling so immersing. Impossible to pass through, enter, or understand.  Feeling this way isn't enjoyable- it's absolutely maddening. You're rarely present no matter how hard you try. You're constantly fighting your ego with your consciousness. Drifting in and out of nothing more than a black hole.  It sounds so morbid- I know. Considerably, though, that's a lot of people's reality.  Sometimes their ...

It's been 45 minutes, my TV is still going, and my two cats, Maddux and Glavine, are completely un-phased as I sit here, jittery and baffled, in my over-sized, battered Andruw Jones shirt that's still sticky with a little sweat from anxiety, shock, and undeniable euphoria. Tonight, for the first time in 22 years, the Atlanta Braves clinched the NLCS, in a 4-2 series- officially heading to the 2021 World Series.  I have waited for this moment my entire life- a lot of us have. Being an Atlanta fan of any sport, well, best of luck. This series, to me, was something I haven't witnessed in baseball in a long time. There was passion. There was hunger. There was resilience. There was strategy.  They played the type of game that made baseball what it is.  I'm not sure which inning it was- I'd like to say before Snitker put in Matzek because... WOW- when I felt my phone vibrate beside me. I'd already been having conversations with friends so I almost simply ignored it as...

Your laugh was so contagious, it sucked me in giving me tunnel vision Your eyes would shine so bright, crinkles would form around your tired edges There was a short high pitch bark from the belly, sincerity seeming to seep through You wore this one the most- my favorite The laughing mask The way you held me in bed, managing to pull at every heart string I had, opening it piece by piece A small, quiet chuckle is what I'd hear and a squeeze I'd feel- the brisk, subtle smell of my hair These moments in time were fleeting, the feeling that was left was not You wore this one the easiest The loving mask You drenched my body in warm water as I shivered with pain, guilt, and fear Telling me how you couldn't lose me, you just got me Telling me that I was strong, smart, and different You wore this one well The reassuring mask  You encouraged me to go against my fears, "you won't know until you try" Assuring me that he would love me- and he did "Can I help you make ...