Part I

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She sat there watching the clips flicker thru like a picture book. The boys' collars flapped and fluttered as they frolicked about the brightly colored grass. Their matching seersucker Easter suits, one yellow one green, making them unbelievable handsome. The twins were consumed with an illumination of joy; their faces like that of Angels. She closed her eyes for a second reminiscing and opened them only to wish she hadn't. Her eyes flashed, her ears began to scold; she saw him in the background. She took a swig from the Jameson bottle in her lap and hurled it at the old TV, shattering it into clumps of pieces. She could hear him upstairs, footsteps heavy on the what seemed to be completely hollow floors, and again, like most moments, she wished she could be free of him. He had taken her boys; she'd take his entire existence. 

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