The past haunts us at times

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When I think about the past I think about all the things I haven't done and all the things I miss all at once... I think about the leaves I haven't seen fall over a lake I've never been fishing in but then I think about that time I watched the leaves fall while eating a picnic, overlooking the lake, with you. I think about all the concerts I haven't been able to go to in all the cities I can't visit but then I think the time we were three rows from the stage in the most beautiful city I've ever seen. I think about all the money I haven't made and all the things I could have bought but then I remember you telling me that money doesn't matter and material things don't have much value. I think about all the people I've never been able to meet and all the things I haven't said but then I think of you and I realize I met you and although I probably never said it all I hope I said enough.

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